“You can’t trust me because I can’t trust you.”

Trust.
Trust should be a feeling not a word.
It hides in a mother’s voice,
In the gaze of a friend,
In the faith you feel for the people you love.

Trust is not just a word.
It is a promise.

Trust is hope.
Trust is love.
Trust is faith.

But why am I always hoping for someone to really love and trust me?
Why am I always the one who loves the most?
My mother avoids talking to me,
silence says more than her words.
“You can’t trust me because I can’t trust you!”
This sentence reverberates in my head.

I want to be loved –
not just noticed.
I want to be cared for –
not just pitied.
I want to be trusted –
not doubted.

Love, love, love.
Not being able to love is cruel,
But never experiencing being loved is brutal.

You know you can love.
Everyone can feel this emotion.
Except, no one feels love for you.

You live your life hoping for someone to notice you,
Just to realize
You were the one that never saw yourself.